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waldo The next few weeks or months are going to be a time filled with great joy and sorrow. The joy comes from celebrating the graduation of my nephew from high school. He has lived with me for the past three years and I have seen him grow into a fine young man. Truth be told he is not my blood nephew but rather one that was created because of the love we have for each other. He is from Cameroon Africa and has been in America only four years, three of witch he has lived with me. So when I say I have seen him struggle and grow, I mean it. He spoke no English when he arrived and was thrown in to high school with the expectations of knowing all that was taught the past 8 years of American schooling. And when I say grow, well I also meaning both in his education and his size. Coming from a poor part of Cameroon he was a small child, but he made up for it fast! He ate like there might not be food the next day, because that was what he knew. It was an amazing time and still is, for him and for me. I have gained so much from the experience that i feel that I owe him a thanks. The is the joy I will experience over the next few months. The sorrow that will come is one that I am truly not looking forward to

My best friends name is Waldo, we have been friends for over 15 years, and have spent everyday together. Waldo is my dog but more importantly he is family. Waldo is a terrier mix, basically a mutt, he is a medium sized dog, about 55 pounds. So for his size he is old. Based on dog years he is about 100 years old, give or take. Up-until about two or three weeks ago he was basically healthy. I did have a scare about 18 months ago where I had to rush him into the vets for issues with his balance, it turned out to be an ear infection, but it still scarred me. The thought of no longer being part of my daily life is a thought that I do not cherish. But it is one I have to come to, his time is running out.

Last week I had to once again rush him to the vet. I arrived home about 9:30 one night to find Waldo spread eagle on the floor unable to stand or walk. He is now of a few meds and basically can walk. He has issues on slippery floors but on carpet he is mostly ok. I have hard wood floors through out the whole house with areas of rugs. So he has issues, I do what I can, I have placed rugs by his food and water and we, my nephew and I watch over him. But each day he seems to have new issues with his ability to stand or walk. Over all he is otherwise healthy, but old. This morning I was reminded of his issues, not that I have forgotten. When I woke up I gave him his breakfast and him meds that I mix in to his food with gravy or applesauce. Why he was eating I went to save and shower and get ready for work when I heard him crying. I found him spread eagle on the floor. The cry was one not of pain but more one of confusion and scared. It was a sound I never want to hear again, it was a sound of total desperation. When I ran to him He was looking at me for help and understanding and I at him with a look of fright and love. The thought of his passing is one that haunts my dreams and my waking hours.

This is the sadness that I will have to deal with over the next few weeks and months. Not to long-ago I lost my other dog, George, a few moths back. February 12 of 2010 George drowned in my back yard pond. And the memory is still vivid in my mind. The loss of a pet to some is nothing more than a loss of a pet, but to me it is a loss of a family member. George was eight years old when he drowned, so for eight years he depended on me and the feeling of failing him was over bearing. Waldo is 16 or 17 and has depended on me for 15 years. I saved him from the humane society days before he was to be put down. And in a way I have that feeling of letting him down because I can not protect him nor save him from what is to come.

I have loss both of my parents and a 23 year old nephew, so I know the pain of loss of loved ones. I would place the loss I feel for George to be on par as to the loss of my loved ones. The loss of Waldo will be felt deep within my heart and soul and my world will change forever just like it did with the loss of my father and than years latter my mother. The loss of any loved one is devastating at best. With the loss of my parents I have learned to celebrate the lives rather than morn the death. Yes I felt a profound emptiness and a deep sorrow that rocked my world. I cried and questioned God as to why He would take my parents at such a young age, but ultimate I celebrated the life they lived. I thanked God for the time we did have together and prayed for there souls. The same can be said for George, I cried and questioned and I cursed the pond that took his life. But in the end I thanked God for George and the happiness he brought to my life. I look at my pond with memories of George and how he loved to swim in it, chase the fish and turtles.

Waldo has and continues to bring me great joy. His personality is truly his and his love and devotion to me and the rest of my family is amazing. The joy he has brought into my life are too numerous to count and the idea of him no longer being their is to hard to phantom.

I know that God is with me, and that He will help me through the next few months of uncertainty. I also know that one day soon Waldo will no longer be waiting for me at the fence when I arrive home, he will no longer bark and anything that happens to pass by and he will no longer be at my side. God willing he will pass in his sleep with no pain, God willing I will be there for him when he needs me the most. And God willing I will be able to comfort him in his time of need.

The joy that my family and friends, including Waldo and George, have given me over the years have helped to create the person I am. With the passing of ones that are close to me I experience a great conversion of faith. I feel the hands of God upon my shoulders providing me the strength and comfort I need. I know the same will be true when Waldo is taken home. This knowledge does not make his passing any less painful, but it does help in the healing process. In Gods ultimate wisdom He knows the big plan for my life, and how each person and pet fits in to it. As for me, I am along for the ride, living my life to the best of my ability, taking each person and pet that comes into my life as a blessing knowing that one day, sooner or latter, they will be taken home. Some before me and others long after I have gone. It is a privilege for me to have had the past 15 years with Waldo, I feel honored to have taken care of him and to have him depend on me as much as I have depended on him.

The joys of sorrows of life are the ebb and flow of our existence, and it truly is a blessing to be experienced. The goodbyes are always hard but necessary, for every time there is a session, a session for joy and a session for sorrow. Soon I will be experiencing two passing’s, on of joy and one of sorrow, a graduation and a death, life is full of opposing forces.

Please pray for both my nephew and Waldo, that they may both my be blessed as they both experience a life changing event, one in to adulthood and one into the next world.

God Bless

Paul

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STATIC Solutions, LLC a leader in middle school faith formation just released it’s on line Portal server, giving unprecedented access to faith formation material to parish educators at unbelievable prices and quality. 

Westland, Michigan (PRWEB) 01, July, 2009 –

STATIC Solutions, LLC a leader in middle school faith formation just released it’s on line Portal server, giving unprecedented access to faith formation material to parishes, home schooled and youth ministers. The STATIC Portal is a web based solution for your parish educational needs, giving total control to you and your parish staff for a reasonable yearly fee.

With the STATIC Portal ™ you will be able to download and print the documents you need when you need them. With continual updates to the Portal, you will always find something new and interesting to use, to help supplement your educational programs, or to replace your existing program with the STATIC Youth ™ program.

The STATIC Youth ™ program is a three year Confirmation preparation program designed to engage the youth in the learning process. The STATIC Youth ™ program uses interactive educational models to draw the youth in to the learning process, and at the same time imparting valuable Catholic principles as they take their faith walk towards conformation.

STATIC Youth ™ is a designed as a 6th through 8th grade program, with an alternating theme of small group (class room) and large group (youth group) sessions. Each session, large or small group, is designed to actively involve the youth and leaders in the process of discovery.

The STATIC Program can also be used as supplemental material for parishes choosing the “whole community” educational model. With 12 different topics to choose from, ranging from Exodus to Christian Service, there is bound to be something that fits your parish needs.

The Home Schooling community will also find the STATIC Portal ™ a useful and relevant tool for their educational and faith needs. STATIC Solutions faith based material can easily be adapted for home schooling needs, or can be used for “group” sessions with other home schooling youth in your area.

The possibilities are endless for the parish, schools or home schooled. With the ability to mix and match to create your own unique program, or by following our tested and proven program, STATIC offers you the control you need and the strong Catholic education materials you desire.

STATIC Portal ™ is a yearly subscription site that allows reproduction rights to all its copy-written material for one year. We, at STATIC Solutions, pride ourselves on delivering relevant programming that is faithful to the teachings of the Catholic Church.

For more information on the STATIC Youth ™ program and the STATIC Portal ™ please visit www.staticplace.com

 

About STATIC Solutions, LLC:
STATIC Solutions, LLC. is a dynamic educational organization dedicated to forging lasting relationships between children, their families, and Christ.  The name stands for Students Taking Action Together in Christ, located in Westland, Michigan. STATIC Solutions has developed fun and interactive Catholic/Christian-based curriculum for young adults in sixth through eighth grade as well as those in youth groups and Sunday school programs.  STATIC Solutions combines activity-based games with high-impact educational lessons that inspire kids to take ownership of their faith.  STATIC Solutions will provide local and national church organizations with subscriptions to this unique and in-demand curriculum.

 

Contact:
Paul Sposite, owner
STATIC Solutions, LLC
734-748-3771
http://www.staticplace.com

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Well it happens, every now and than days come along that just allow you to rest, to refuel, and that’s what Sunday was for me, a day to rest. Saturday I was up early and spent the morning at a conference, than Saturday afternoon I puttzed on the computer and around the house, didn’t do much, but never felt relaxed. But Sunday, after church I found that grove, the one that allows you to relax and to enjoy the day just as it is. So that’s what I did. I say by my pond, read some newspapers, finished a book and read some other books I have going (I like to read 3 or 4 books at one time).

It was a perfect day in all regards here in Michigan, the sun was out there was a slight breeze and a calm in the air that held me captive. It was a wonderful thing! It was a day that allowed you to get lost in it, no that’s not it, allowed doesn’t really give the day justice, it was more of a beckoning kind of day.This day beckoned me, called to my soul and begged me to get lost in her rays of sunshine and her cool breeze that tantalized me and engulfed me.

Days like that are perfection, they allow the soul to rest in the perfection of nature and in the kindness of God. The resting of the soul is paramount to a body in harmony with creation and the creator, it is this harmony that allows the creative process to flow.

The ability to get lost in the day is the ability to allow the natural energy of creation to take over, to fill you with the radiance of God and His loving and healing embrace. This ability is a natural ability, but modern man, in all his greatness, has lost this ability. It is now an ability that is lost, one that use to come natural now needs to be taught.

As we have created a more productive society, we have also created a more detached society. Detached from family, from each other and our neighbors. But more importantly we are detached from creation, and from the creator, God himself. This detached state draws energy from us, causing us to wear our, for our souls to get exhausted and for us to become less than what we are. The ability to rest in the Lord is the ability to find peace of soul.

Often times we are told that we must find peace of mind, to allow our minds to gather energy and rest, to place behind us the unpleasant realities of the modern world. Well I would challenge you that it’s not peace of mind that we need, but more likely peace of soul. We need to once again connect with the Lord on a level of intimacy that is currently unknown to us. We need to allow the Spirit of God to consume us, to fill us and to over flow from with in us.

The quiet of the heart leads to the pleasure of the soul…

Paul

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Today I had to practice keeping my anger under control, in fact that’s how I started my day. A part of my life currently is dealing with a bankruptcy, due to the failing of our store and helping other people out and getting taken advantage of. But that’s for a different blog. 

What happened this morning to start my day so well… My Jeep was repoed, now if it was expected I would be fine with it, but as part of my bankruptcy is the protection of the Jeep. So my anger quickly came to the forefront. Trust me it took all I have to hold it in check. I am currently working to get my Jeep back and continue on my way to repay all my debt. Yes, I am repaying it all, not all bankruptcy’s are the same, I will be paying off all my debt, the bankruptcy is just to protect me in situations like this. But it failed me, so far. With any luck I will have my Jeep back soon, if not I will be getting a new vehicle.

God finds ways to test us, or is it better to say, we find ways to test ourselves. It is up to me to keep my anger in check, God did not create the situation I am in, I did, God did not make me open up a Catholic/Christian book store, I did, God did not make me help out a family member nor did God make that family member abuse my kindness. God didn’t do any of that, but what God did was to be with me at all times, he offered His comfort and graces to me. And this morning I took them and held my anger at bay. It was hard, and to tell you the truth, I really wanted to let it all out, to use words that are not very nice, but I didn’t.

God has a funny way about Him, he finds the oddest moments to show His love. In the mist of a bankruptcy He chooses to show His grace to me, He chooses to send HIs calming love to me.  God seems to like to use situations like this to show his saving grace.

It seems God has a sense of humor, because I am sure someone finds this all funny, and others will find it justice, thinking I am trying to get out of paying my debt, but as I have stated, I will be repaying my debt 100%, I just need the help in restructuring it, allowing my time to pay it. In three years it will all be paid off, and I will continue along my way. So Ha Ha very funny does not apply here, it’s more like, well here we go again, yet another bump in the road.

I know that God is with me, and that is love and grace is always with me. And with His love I will make it, I will survive. I just hope with a little less bumps and a little less drama. I just want to get on with it, move on and enjoy life.

Now truth be told, I am enjoying life, and I am getting on with it, but I really would like to be done with all this, the stress is sometimes unbearable, and it makes it hard to keep an upbeat personality going. I am, by nature, an upbeat person, so to add this stress to my life is like adding an anchor to me, keeping me down, and this weight last for three years… As Charlie Brown would say UGGH! It is at times like this that I do feel like good old Charlie Brown, I feel like a BLOCK HEAD!

But I know that it will all be over one day, that soon I will be debt free and out of bankruptcy, but I am sure something will replace that, there seems to always be something going on in my life, death of a parent, taking in a youth and now bankruptcy, So what will it be next? I guess I will just have to wait…

Sometimes the excitement is just to much for me… NOT! Truth be told, I could use a little non-excitement in my life, it would be nice to know that noting is happening, that nothing is going wrong. But I am convinced that my life is not meant to be boring, that in to my life strife must come.

But in the end, I was proud of myself for keeping my cool this morning, I was pleased to know that all the bad words stayed in my head, and in the end this little life experience has taught me a life lesson, and for that I am thankful, but its still not funny!

Paul

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I know what I want to do when I grow up, do you?

Me, I want to help people to explore their inner depths. I want to help people see their dreams become realities; I want to help people walk along the path that has been set for them from before they were even born. My dream is to see other people’s dreams become realities.

And in truth, for the most part I do this now. It’s not my full time job, but it is part of my life. As a youth minister I teach my youth that faith is there’s to hold and to run with. Unlike running with scissors, running with faith is a good thing. In teaching the faith to the youth, I am teaching them to follow the path God has laid out for them.

I do it through the two blogs I write. By offering my insights and thoughts on topics of interest (to me at least) I am equipping you, the reader of my blogs, with starting points to learn more, to go that one extra step. I am offering you the ability to build off my central idea, to help create a person who is on the path. Or maybe helping them find the path.

And I do it with my daily life. I try to live a life that follows the principles I offer in my blogs, I try to be what it is I offer up in the blogs. I try to live my life as I am expected to live it, and I try to stay on the path to God.

But I still need to grow up, meaning, I still want to find that one job in life that will allow me to dedicate my time to my passion. I still am looking for where I truly fit in.

The current path I am on in life is headed in the right direction, but I feel it is not the path for me, that I need to discover still one more path. I am looking, searching for that path and at times I feel I am getting closer. But it seems I just am not there yet. But I know where I am headed; I’m just not sure how much further ahead of me it is. Or is it behind me, and I just past it up?

So what do you want to be when you grow up? Me I want to be a healer, a life guide and a teacher. I want to make a difference in the lives of others, than to fade away. I want to be what God created me for; I want to be his servant. And I pray that I am moving in the right direction.

Paul

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On December 27th I had to attend the funeral of my 23 year old nephew Aaron Esposito.  Aaron was killed in a car crash on December 21, on his way home from a meeting in Indiana.  It was an extremely hard week for me and my family, and to tell the truth, I am not sure how my brother or sister-in-law held up so well.  Parents are not supposed to bury their children, it’s just too hard to imagine.

But in a very spiritual way the process was a healing one, and a deeply moving one. Aaron lived a life that most of us would only dream about, and I did not find that out until his death. How sad.

But Aaron’s death is also a lesson, a lesson on life and how to live it. Aaron’s life was not a charmed one; he had a hard life for his short time here on earth. His parents were not, as we would say, always there for him. But Aaron chose to live a life that was productive and healthy; he chose to allow God in to his life and to use his passions to make this world a better place, one person at a time.

At his funeral the minister read from his journal, and one line stands out to me, Aaron wrote a simple line, only a few words, four to be exact, but to me the four words covers it all.

“Ping-Pong of fear”…..

WOW, what a powerful statement, and what a true testimony to how life is. We all deal with fear; its part of the human condition, the difference is how we deal with it, what we make of it. Aaron chose to use his fear for the betterment of himself and others.  Others choose to allow their fears to control them, and still others deny their fears, choose to not see them at all.

Fear is part of life; it gives us clues to how to live. We use fear as a way to help us choose the path in life we wish to take. Some of us face them head on; others of us choose to walk around them. We see this is our everyday life, in almost all we do. Who hasn’t been fearful of a new job, or a new home? How about a new school or a new life, Fear is the glue that keeps us grounded and it is also the glue that keeps us standing still. Fear can be a motivator or it can be destabilizing aspect that sets your life in to a downward spin. Fear is a controlling emotion; fear is a fact of life.

Aaron stated that fear was like a ping-pong game, a battle between the two sides of fear, to embrace it or to ignore it. Aaron chose to embrace it, to face it head on. Now I am sure Aaron did not always do this, in fact I am sure that at times Aaron ran from choosing to ignore it. But the simple fact that he saw it as part of his life, that he wrote it down in his journal and named it as he saw it states a lot. Aaron knew that he had fear, that fear was part of who he was, and Aaron named it called it out and gave his fears an identity.

Aaron was a sportsman; he loved sports, so to call fear a “Ping-Pong Match” placed fear in its proper place, making it a game, a competition, one that Aaron could win. Like any sport you have to practice, study and learn.  Aaron did that, he read the bible, self help books and motivation materials, and he looked deep within to find the strength to help him in the match and he looked to God to fortify him and to send His grace upon him.

Aaron’s journal contained notes of all sorts, notes on his Amway business, notes on his personal life and quotes and passages from the bible. Aaron’s journal showed how he knew his life was not a patchwork of separate Aarons, but rather how the pieces of patchwork created the one Aaron. Aaron understood that everything he did affected every aspect of his life, and affected everyone in his life. The fear may have held him back some, but from what I know of him, and from what I learned of him, Aaron used the fear not to hold him back, but to catapult him forward.

Aaron will be missed by many, over 600 people attended his service on Saturday, on Friday there had to have been over 300 people throughout the day. The words of kindness and gratitude towards Aaron was overwhelming, and the tears shed for him could have filled a river, But Aaron’s life was not one of regrets but rather opportunities. His passing will leave a hole in many souls but his legacy will fill many more.

Aaron I miss you and I love you, may you rest in the peace of God the Father and may you be forever in His glory.

May we, Aaron’s family and friends find comfort in Aaron’s everlasting love; May God bless us and keep us all.

Love

Uncle Paul

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Strange is our situation here upon earth. Each of us comes for a short visit, not knowing

why, yet sometimes seeming to divine a purpose.

-Albert Einstein

 

A brilliant man, Albert Einstein, he changed our world, and our thinking.  Often times with simple phrases such as the one above.

We all have a purpose, a reason to be here on this earth, we all play a part in the play called life. And as any good actor will tell you, there are no small parts, only small actors. I may not be an Albert Einstein, but then again he is no Paul Sposite. So in the end it all works out, we off set each other, creating a greater whole.  

Belief in self is fine, in fact necessary, but belief in, as Albert puts it, a divine purpose, something greater than self, is an absolute necessity.

To truly improve, to truly grow, we need an understanding that we are not the do-all and end-all of our existence, that there is a greater force than ourselves out there.

Dr. Wayne Dyer calls is the “Source” in his book “The power of intention”. This is a life changing book, one that truly maps out the need for and the power of the “Source” (God). The connection that has to be cleaned up and re-established, it is not a matter of creating the connection, it was always there, it’s a matter of recognizing it and “cleaning it up”. I would recommend that everyone read (or listen to the CD’s of it) the “Power of Intention”, and watch how it changes your life, for the better.

The all knowing power source, God, is your ticket to truly changing in to what was intended for you. By re-establishing that connection you are connecting to pure goodness (Godness), re-establishing the connection that was there before you entered this world, recreating a relationship to the center of life, here on earth and in the heavens.

To connect to the source means connection to love, charity and all that is pure and good. God cannot create badness He cannot create that which He is not. He can only create what he is, Pure Love and Goodness.

Change is a partnership, one that God (The Source) has given to you, has always be there you, all you have to do is connect to it, allow it to surge through you and around you. As Dr. Dyer states you must be inspired (the original meaning of the word is in-spirit), you must want that connection, and cultivate it. God wants nothing but what is best for you, and by reestablishing that connection, God will provide what is missing in your life, allow you to grow in self.

God has a Divine Purpose for you, it’s not hidden nor is it mystical or magical. It is there waiting for you, if you only connect back to the source, connect back to where you came from, goodness, back to God.

 

Paul

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