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Today is the start of a great day, we all have the same opportunity to make this day be the best day of our lives. The great thing about being a human is that we all can choose our own paths, we all can decide what kind of day we will have. And if we decide to make it a bad day that is what it will be but if we decide to make this the greatest day in our lives, than that is what it will be. Each day can be the greatest day or the worst day, you decide.

That is the great thing about like, each morning we get a fresh new start, we can choose to make it something special or something not so special. Me, I decide that each day will be the best day of my life. Sometimes it is hard and yes sometimes I fail, but I try.

Life is funny that way, if you think about it. We often times choose not to try, to just allow the world around us to push and pull us were it likes. Than when we end up were we don’t want to be we complain and wine about it. Yet we had the power all along to not be pushed and pulled. But you know why we do allow it, we allow it because we convince ourselves that that is easier than to fight it. That if we just sit back and allow life to push and pull us, we will have no strife in our lives that life will be ok. But it never works out that way, we never end up where we want to be, and it is always more damaging than if we where to fight it.

Think about it, if a storm is coming, a really big storm, we know that it is smarter to put things away, tie things down and protect what we have. If we have animals we bring them in so they wont get hurt, if we have outdoor tables and chairs we secure them down. We know that the table will suffer less damage and cause less damage if it is not just being pushed and pulled by the storm. The same holds true for us, we will cause less damage to others and ourselves if we are secured if we don’t allow the storms of life to push and pull us. Sure the work to secure everything may take time, and it is hard work, but in the end the pets are all safe and the table and chairs are still were we want them. In life it means that we are still on secure ground and we are were we want to be.

Life is going to try to toss you around some but the more you push back on it and chose to fight for yourself the better you will be. You will know the ground you are on, and you will know that you are secured and safe and you can weather the next storm.

Paul

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Today I had to practice keeping my anger under control, in fact that’s how I started my day. A part of my life currently is dealing with a bankruptcy, due to the failing of our store and helping other people out and getting taken advantage of. But that’s for a different blog. 

What happened this morning to start my day so well… My Jeep was repoed, now if it was expected I would be fine with it, but as part of my bankruptcy is the protection of the Jeep. So my anger quickly came to the forefront. Trust me it took all I have to hold it in check. I am currently working to get my Jeep back and continue on my way to repay all my debt. Yes, I am repaying it all, not all bankruptcy’s are the same, I will be paying off all my debt, the bankruptcy is just to protect me in situations like this. But it failed me, so far. With any luck I will have my Jeep back soon, if not I will be getting a new vehicle.

God finds ways to test us, or is it better to say, we find ways to test ourselves. It is up to me to keep my anger in check, God did not create the situation I am in, I did, God did not make me open up a Catholic/Christian book store, I did, God did not make me help out a family member nor did God make that family member abuse my kindness. God didn’t do any of that, but what God did was to be with me at all times, he offered His comfort and graces to me. And this morning I took them and held my anger at bay. It was hard, and to tell you the truth, I really wanted to let it all out, to use words that are not very nice, but I didn’t.

God has a funny way about Him, he finds the oddest moments to show His love. In the mist of a bankruptcy He chooses to show His grace to me, He chooses to send HIs calming love to me.  God seems to like to use situations like this to show his saving grace.

It seems God has a sense of humor, because I am sure someone finds this all funny, and others will find it justice, thinking I am trying to get out of paying my debt, but as I have stated, I will be repaying my debt 100%, I just need the help in restructuring it, allowing my time to pay it. In three years it will all be paid off, and I will continue along my way. So Ha Ha very funny does not apply here, it’s more like, well here we go again, yet another bump in the road.

I know that God is with me, and that is love and grace is always with me. And with His love I will make it, I will survive. I just hope with a little less bumps and a little less drama. I just want to get on with it, move on and enjoy life.

Now truth be told, I am enjoying life, and I am getting on with it, but I really would like to be done with all this, the stress is sometimes unbearable, and it makes it hard to keep an upbeat personality going. I am, by nature, an upbeat person, so to add this stress to my life is like adding an anchor to me, keeping me down, and this weight last for three years… As Charlie Brown would say UGGH! It is at times like this that I do feel like good old Charlie Brown, I feel like a BLOCK HEAD!

But I know that it will all be over one day, that soon I will be debt free and out of bankruptcy, but I am sure something will replace that, there seems to always be something going on in my life, death of a parent, taking in a youth and now bankruptcy, So what will it be next? I guess I will just have to wait…

Sometimes the excitement is just to much for me… NOT! Truth be told, I could use a little non-excitement in my life, it would be nice to know that noting is happening, that nothing is going wrong. But I am convinced that my life is not meant to be boring, that in to my life strife must come.

But in the end, I was proud of myself for keeping my cool this morning, I was pleased to know that all the bad words stayed in my head, and in the end this little life experience has taught me a life lesson, and for that I am thankful, but its still not funny!

Paul

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